CRAZY!

This was definitely a crazy week! I can't even begin to list all of the madness that went on. I know that we daily as believers go through trials and at times they may seem hard to bare but we are suppose to press on, but this week I almost folded! All week I was being tested on trusting the Lord completely and believing that everything would work out for the good and I had Anthony telling me to pray and give it to the Lord. But unfortunately my flesh won the battle and I decided rather than to give my cares to the Lord to bare the burden on my own, which of course was to heavy for me to bare. So of course by the end of the week when I was placed in a situation where my temper was being tested, I BROKE! And I see how it is so easy to walk in the spirit one minute and then the next whoa!!!! We are fleshing out! I seem to wonder why it is we do that? I guess it is the human side of us, the bible tells us to walk in the spirit so we don't fullfill the lusts of the flesh and of course as I look back on the week I see that I wasn't walking in the spirit. I believe as we seek the Lord daily and are doing those essentials that help us grow and ground us in our faith we are absolutely walking in His spirit...but as soon as we take our eyes off of Jesus and look at our circumstances it is all over! Just like Peter when he was walking on water, as long as he kept his focus on Jesus he stayed on top of the water but as soon as he looked down he began to sink. You see I heard it said before that Peter looked around him and saw the storm and it freaked him out, he looked inside himself and saw the fear and it through him off, but he failed to look up and see God. How many times do we do this? There is a huge situation and we know, I mean we KNOW God is there! We may have even seen Him deliver us from this situation before and yet we still figure that it is better that this time...we handle things on our own. Is as if we say the the Lord, "step aside Jesus we got this time, I can handle it." And time after time we fall, we slip, we sink! And the whole time Jesus has His hand out just waiting for us to grab it.
You see, if I would have just grabbed His hand in the first place I wouldn't have felt so "stressed out!" so "overwhelmed" because I was trying to solve something in my own strength, that I was never created to solve! I would have been able to let go and allow God to work through me, because it is when I feel "I CAN DO IT!" that my pride takes over and I began to solve everything my way! But yet the bible says that only when I am weak His strength is perfected. Wow! God's strength is perfected in my weakness...I am simply asked by the Lord to step back, let go and surrender to His will. And what is His will? To pray always, without ceasing, to cast all of my cares upon Him because He cares for me and to know that there is no temptation that has overcome me, He will always provide for me a way out. Wow! This is His will and all I have to do is stand upon it, walk in it, live it!!!!! So like when we were in school and we were taught a lesson, later there was a "test" and if we failed, usually we could make it up, but eventually there would be another test with the same subjects or criteria that was on the first, or even worse we had to know the stuff from the test we failed in order to learn the new lesson and pass the new test! Amazing!
So the only difference here is we have an "Open Book Test" and the maker of the test is just waiting for us to let go, and let Him walk us through. We are guaranteed an A+ if we just let Him lead.

I must study up...and begin to apply the word.

If there is no application of the Word of God in my life....then all the studying is useless! There must be heart knowledge where there is head knowledge. Be a doer of the word not just a hearer.

In Christ,

Angelia